I willed my ears
into birds
to take flight
so as not to hear
him, incessant
whispering sweet nothings
nothing
nothing
nothing
 
I willed my eyes
wide shut
stop;
a pause button
on a VCR
so I wouldn't have
to see his
dirty sock grin
 
I willed my prematurely curvaceous body
to shrink, a receding tide
like my dad's hairline
drained coffee cup
like skeletons
of extinct creatures
that walked our land
dinosaur, moa
I would be untouchable
untouchable
untouchable.